Astro for June 21, 2022
A ramble of last night’s late-night thoughts inspired by today’s forecast:
Waning moon in Aries square sun that just entered Cancer challenging us to confront and then let go of our anger. The Moon conjunct Jupiter in Aries allows us to find a constructive outlet for our anger today. Also seeing how our anger has been fueled by deeper emotions. Thanks to Jupiter we can ponder on our rage a bit more today to understand where it originated. Cancer season inspires us to tap into our emotional memory. Water as an element holds memory. Moon in Aries shows emotional reactivity, reactions and triggers are more so linked to memories than they are to the present moment. When you feel your triggers taking you back to emotions stored from the past, allow yourself to recognize the pattern to become aware of it without rushing to change it or criticize it. just acknowledge it. “The feeling I feel now reminds me of how I felt when _____” think about how you usually allow this feeling to influence your behavior. Take a second and think about how you’d want your behavior to influence your emotion. Rather than react as a result of emotion, allow your action to inspire a new emotion. Once we have the awareness we can make the change, yet it takes a few times of just practicing the awareness before we can graduate to actually implement the change.
Don’t let emotional impulsivity lead you astray today. And if your emotions do get away from you don’t shame yourself. Pat yourself on the back for awareness, even if it’s in retrospect. I’ve been realizing that the idea that everyone should just be emotionally responsible is quite ableist. There can be a multitude of reasons as to why someone might not be able to “control their emotions.” Whether it be neurodivergency, results of trauma/PTSD, or any other valid causes of emotional dysregulation it’s just not realistic to expect everyone to be in control of their emotions all the time. It’s not always about our immediate reaction so much as it’s about our recovery. If you say or do something in the heat of the moment that you’re not proud of shaming yourself will not help you. The best decision you can make after the fact is to reflect, take accountability, and apologize if necessary. the people who love you shouldn’t hold it against you if they know that you were just having a moment. And we will have those moments cuz we’re human but as long as we remember our humanity by considering the humanity of others it’s okay.
We as humans do hold memory, but the great thing about is that we’re like vhs tapes. If there’s a memory that isn’t sitting right with you, you have the right to film over the one you don’t want to make a new one. Now it’s not as simple as just recording over it. It does take a few extra steps and repetition to download a new memory to replace another one but it is not impossible. It takes slowing down so that we can catch ourselves in that split second between the trigger and the reaction. It takes slowing down to remember that we are in the present and we don’t have to put ourselves through the pain of reliving the past. It takes looking around at your current environment and the person across from you to see that this is not the same space you were hurt in before, it doesn’t have to be the same outcome.
The Jupiter/Moon combo square to Lilith could also cause us to confront hidden feelings of shame and disempowerment. Lilith inspires us to protect ourselves and prevent us from falling victim to anymore pain, unfair treatment, or the malicious intentions of others. We must ponder the bravery of vulnerability and the ways we can protect ourselves without robbing ourselves of the opportunity to embrace vulnerability and sensitivity. How can we set healthy boundaries without completely closing ourselves off?
